Still kicking…

May 13th, 2010

admin

It has been a while since I have posted and I wanted to assure my readers that I am doing well. I have not been hospitalized or in the midst of a major breakdown. It’s actually quite the opposite. I have been doing well enough to take on other clients and I spend a lot of time buried in work.

I am very excited about the direction my life has taken. I feel very productive and I am earning a lot more than I believed possible as a freelancer. It feels good. I am also toying with the idea of letting my first full manuscript gather dust and start fresh. I have a much different outlook on life than I did when I wrote the first manuscript. I feel compelled to write again but time is an issue right now. If the urge keeps growing, I will just have to make time for it.

Aside from that, my relationship with my husband is flourishing. He makes it a point to show me every day how much he loves and appreciates me. He is romantic and caring…quite thoughtful. He amazes me with his devotion. I have so much to be thankful for in my life. My lifelong dream of being published was realized this year and has compelled me to strike out on my own. I am doing what I love to do and earn enough to make a living from it. That feels great. I work from my recliner and that…oh, it is just wonderful.

Some of you are asking how I am dealing with my illness at this point. I’m doing very well. I still have minor issues with anger but I have found that I have more self-control than some people who aren’t ill and I am proud of that. I have also seen that no matter how much I languish over what I consider bad decisions on my part, they are minor and silly things. In fact, I realize that I am more rational than most other people and often find myself being the voice of reason. Where does this leave me? In spite of having a mental illness, I am doing much better than some people who do not. Even though it is more difficult for me than some others, I excel and my life is more fulfilling. I feel this makes me a stronger person than many. I am content with life. Once again I say, “Life’s been good to me so far.”