December 14th, 2009 
admin As I continue my downward spiral into the depths of depravity in the midst of December, my “brave face” is already starting to wash away. This is not going to be good. I have agoraphobia and that is a terrible thing to have during the holidays. I am okay with a crowd of friends because [...]
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September 30th, 2009 admin Day 2 of no medication. Let the Lamictal (lamotrigine) withdrawals commence! Oh wait, they already have. Withdrawals are always fun but I did manage to do some research and I am finding that some of the things I didn’t even think were withdrawal symptoms really are. Bear with me. I may not make much sense [...]
Posted in About Bipolar Disorder, Agoraphobia, Bipolar 2, Bipolar I, Cyclothymia, Featured, My Personal Experiences, NOS, Panic Disorder, Psychosis, Symptoms Tags: about, Agoraphobia, all, back, bipolar, crawling, disorder, electrical, fatigue, hearing, ideas, lamictal, lamotrigine, nausea, pain, racing, skin, Symptoms, thoughts, voices, withdrawal No Comments » September 9th, 2009 admin There has been a lot of debate over whether parents with bipolar disorder are capable of being good parents. I have repeatedly said it is possible and there are many examples of it. I offer you my own experience so that you may form your own conclusion. My oldest son will be 18 in December. [...]
August 27th, 2009 admin I just love trips to the doctor. Actually, I love my doctor. I just don’t like the trip. Agoraphobia really does bite. I always look forward to being weighed. (Ha!) Actually, it’s not that I am big-I am big for me. I know that doesn’t make sense so I will explain it. I weighed 97 [...]
Posted in About Bipolar Disorder, Agoraphobia, Bipolar 2, Bipolar I, Cyclothymia, NOS, Panic Disorder, Psychosis, Symptoms Tags: about, Agoraphobia, all, bipolar, lamictal, nasonex, pinched nerve, Psychosis, seroquel, suicidal, xanax No Comments » July 30th, 2009 admin It has been a long week. This is the second week of my daughter’s band camp and we have a potluck dinner tonight. It gives them time to reveal their field show to the parents. I don’t like being in public and being surrounded by tons of strangers makes it much worse. I am not [...]
Posted in My Personal Experiences Tags: about, Agoraphobia, all, band camp, bipolar, car, CARS, dealers, rebate No Comments » May 4th, 2009 admin It has been some time since I had my last episode. I’ve been very near stabilization for awhile, but I had a complete meltdown Friday afternoon. I think part of it was caused by the recent change in the dosage of my medication and part of it was agoraphobia and panic. My husband had decided [...]
Posted in About Bipolar Disorder, Agoraphobia, My Personal Experiences Tags: Agoraphobia, anger, bipolar, panic, rage No Comments » April 22nd, 2009 admin Anxiety, frustration, fear and self-loathing. These are all of the emotions I have felt this morning. It’s been a very long morning but I have made it thus far and I will keep trudging through the day. Is it bedtime yet? I was actually supposed to go the see my doctor yesterday. I couldn’t stand [...]
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